Big Love

In my entire life, I always thought that I have nothing that I can be proud of, apart from my brain. -.-" I always thought that I have nothing that I can cherish for, except for my loving family. I always thought that I was never good enough for anyone or anything, yeap, I was being so difficult towards myself.



Until I met someone. Someone who, literally changed my whole life. Not turned it upside down, but instead he sets it straight, and he makes me see it clearly for the first time, who I really am. He teaches me everything I never knew of, and he never looked down on me for my lack of knowledge. He never wrong-footed me, in fact he knows me better than I am. He cherishes me more than I'll ever knew, because he has such a big, kind heart, which I never found on somebody else.



He makes me want to swim across a sea or jump across an erupted volcano or just die catch a grenade for him or throw my hand on a blade for him or jump in front of a train for him, or, to be less dramatically, do anything, just anything, as long as I could be with him. He makes me realized that, I actually have something, someone, that I must cherish and care for, that I want to cherish for, because he now is the reason for my living. He sees me as someone so angelic, someone so beautiful and kind and great, and although I always find him so ridiculous sometimes, I could never felt more touched, ever.



No words can describe how much, how deep, my feeling is for him. I'm not a deep person, but I literally can't live without knowing his presence, his very existence. It's just like Yellow, "Your skin and bones, turn into something beautiful, and you know, for you I'd bleed myself dry." And it's exactly like Halo, "I swore I'd never fall again but this don't even feel like falling." I remember I was too chicken to let you in before, but right when you entered into my life, I have no regrets whatsoever, deciding to believe and stay with you.



And for all the love you've given me, for everything you've taught me, for all the needs you've fulfilled me, I thank you, for being the greatest person ever (actually, you fall second, Mum always first, you taught me that). Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for being the love of my life.



I love you. Forever.




"Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now."


"Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't begin to pull me back to the ground again."



Wedding Anthem -.-"