Browsing through Facebook and Twitter today searching for my old friends. Both back in SAB and Taiping. The feelings were... Kinda weird, but pleasant at the same time. And a little worries. Weird because I haven't talk/text/contact in any sort of ways to them for a very long time, pleasant because it makes me remember that I used to have this MANY friends, and worry because... Things are not the same anymore. I know for a fact that I'm the most horrible friend anyone could ever have, I forgot my friendship faster than you can say... Whatever you wanna say, I always failed to appreciate my friends, I'm always "Me, me, me" and yes these always get in between my friendships and I blame no one else but me. But to quote from my best friend that I could be the most terrific one in my best mood, well yes I can. Like today, but that doesn't make up for what I did and behaved in the past. I'm also a little worried about... What do they think of me? I have almost forgotten about what had happened 5-6 years back, but have they? Will it be weird if I suddenly go "Hai! Lama tak borak! Apa khabar? Sorry been missing for so long." Of course it will that's so weird and creepy at the same time perempuan ini nak apa buang tebiat -_-". Anyway, I just... I don't know. I wish to make amends to my friends. I remember when everything was perfect and I have the best friends ever, sadly that moments never last for long. Looking back, I could see all those horrid memories I wish I could forget. If I could just look further I could see what I'm looking for. And wish I could have that again. But I've changed, people change, things changed, Henry played for Arsenal now in fact, so what do I expect kan? Eh sudahlah kau merapu apa panjang-panjang sini dok speaking London cakap Melayu tak boleh?
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Friends
Browsing through Facebook and Twitter today searching for my old friends. Both back in SAB and Taiping. The feelings were... Kinda weird, but pleasant at the same time. And a little worries. Weird because I haven't talk/text/contact in any sort of ways to them for a very long time, pleasant because it makes me remember that I used to have this MANY friends, and worry because... Things are not the same anymore. I know for a fact that I'm the most horrible friend anyone could ever have, I forgot my friendship faster than you can say... Whatever you wanna say, I always failed to appreciate my friends, I'm always "Me, me, me" and yes these always get in between my friendships and I blame no one else but me. But to quote from my best friend that I could be the most terrific one in my best mood, well yes I can. Like today, but that doesn't make up for what I did and behaved in the past. I'm also a little worried about... What do they think of me? I have almost forgotten about what had happened 5-6 years back, but have they? Will it be weird if I suddenly go "Hai! Lama tak borak! Apa khabar? Sorry been missing for so long." Of course it will that's so weird and creepy at the same time perempuan ini nak apa buang tebiat -_-". Anyway, I just... I don't know. I wish to make amends to my friends. I remember when everything was perfect and I have the best friends ever, sadly that moments never last for long. Looking back, I could see all those horrid memories I wish I could forget. If I could just look further I could see what I'm looking for. And wish I could have that again. But I've changed, people change, things changed, Henry played for Arsenal now in fact, so what do I expect kan? Eh sudahlah kau merapu apa panjang-panjang sini dok speaking London cakap Melayu tak boleh?
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