Friday, August 31, 2012

New Phase


I'll be starting my new job, as an accountant, on next Monday which is just two days away! I'm not that excited, but I do feel relieved though. At least I gotta earn my own money now. Can't stand staying at home being helpless all alone, and keep thinking I'm 22 and I can't even help my mom. That's about to change, I hope.


P.S: I don't know if I sound angry all the time but believe me I'm not. I mean, NOT ALL THE TIME. It's just impossible to be serene and calm when you're living in the most inconvenient place with these lazy... (About to use inappropriate words so I better stop here.) My point is, I'm an angry person, I am. But I don't just "fire" (malay term) people all the time. Sometimes I can be straightforward and very honest because I speak my mind, loudly. I didn't see any harm in doing that, until I realised...that people see me as a bitter, angry, unpleasant kind of person (I think. And I'm 80% positive about that.)


So I just wanna clear this up. I'm telling you here while not being emotionally attached but rather with a straight, rational mind that I rather be like this. Because, being all bubbly...and "I'm so happy!" "Yeaay just bought a new bag and shoes and..." that's just not my thing. Yeah of course I CAN be happy! Like when I'm happy when I went for a date with my boyfriend. But I can't ignore the fact that there's just so many people that are so annoying and hence lead me to tweet whatever I feel... So no, I wasn't being ANGRY. I'm just saying how I FEEL. And apparently I sound unpleasant...? Well, that's just me. Not sorry, at all. Hehehe!


Friday, August 24, 2012

Alone

Not in my best mood to do anything - answering calls, texts, mentions whatsoever because... I don't know... Just because. Somehow the energy I've been saving up this week was swept clean from what happened last night. Right now I just wanna crawl myself to bed not thinking of anything, tidur sampai lebam. And re-energize myself.


Got tones to do next week. And will be starting job in two weeks time. Big sigh... Kill me already.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Before/After

I used to be just like this.


And now I'm nothing but this.


Saturday, August 4, 2012

22 Today

I am 22 today.


22, broke and jobless.


Sedih gila bunyi. Takpelah nak buat macam mana. Duduk rumah pun tak sampai sebulan lagi, result exam pun baru dapat. Lega...tak jangka sungguh, gila puas hati result kali ni. Syukur syukur.


Tak sabar nak buka puasa hari ni!